I’ve had a hectic few weeks & some days I feel like I’m just trying to keep my head above water so to speak.
I returned from my Tasmanian trip in the last week of January & it took me a few days to get back in some sort of routine. I had routine & intention on holiday but it was a different sort & it was only me so I didn’t have to worry about anyone else. I had such a fantastic time.
I scheduled in all of the workbooks, podcasts & daily journals while I was away as I’m determined to give this my 100% this year as I focus on me. I struggled with some of the topics as there were questions in which I had no idea
Who do I want to be?
What do I want to do or love to do?
Reality is I don’t know where to from here as I’m unsure what I love to do anymore as I’ve always made sure everyone else was ok & looked after that I’ve forgotten what interests me. Is that normal to not know?
I have some goals & know what needs attention in my life but it seems like what needs fixing or being made a priority I’ve made my goals ie my health, relationships & how to better manage money.
I do know that I will be concentrating & making my Health my major goal this year.
When I returned home I continued to do the workbooks etc but struggled to stay motivated as I had responsibilities at home that truthfully I was bored doing day after day. My holidays sure did open up a lot of emotions of things I haven’t achieved over the years while I looked after everyone. It’s not that I regretted doing it but now they’re all Adults & still at home( Age 25, 23 & 21. One son who was 25 moved out before Xmas) I’m finding the tasks mundane & sick of being responsible for it all. I went back to work at the end of January & it seems that the days just blend into 1 again as I’m exhausted all the time. My Rhuematoid has been worst the last 6 months.
I’ve still continued to do all of your work though except for the first few days of February. My son’s girlfriend lost her Dad unexpectedly at the age of 54 & it hit me pretty hard. It made me realise that we can die at anytime & that I still haven’t worked out what I want to do yet.Unfortunately I did numb out for a few days & didn’t complete the daily journals & have struggled with the Success part of week 1 mainly:
How do I want to grow?
What is the potential you see inside yourself?
What do you want to use your skills & talents for in a way that is of value?
I’m not sure what I have to offer the world or what I want to do?
I’m sorry for the long email but I feel if I can’t answer these questions then I may struggle with certain other topics if they are related to these.
Loving your program so far.