This month I have realised that what so many do with food I do with shopping.
I have created as ‘protocol’ using your food and alcohol model and I am really struggling.
The desire to shop for new things for me and my family is quite frightening.
I didnt realise this huge amount of energy was driving me to the shops, almost daily, to buy nice new things.
Online, in the store, via instagram, you name it, if I see it and like it I buy it.
It has not caused any financial issues, we can afford it, but this work has made me see how controlled by it I am.
I have so much stuff it’s embarrassing.
I have started cleaning out my wardrobe, far too many things with tags still on, and I have not bought anything new all month.
My protocol has me shopping 4 times per year for clothing and home wears and buying all gifts for each month on the first Sunday of the month.
I am seeing that the shopping was keeping me from the house.
And the reason for this is because I think if I am at home all day I will eat all the food and get fat.
WTF?!?
I had no idea this was the driver.
This work is confronting but so worth it.
The shit our brains think!
Just wanted to share.
The mind comes up with some interesting ones.
Why do you think your will eat all the food?
Has this been the case in the past?
Why are you so scared of gaining weight?
You dont have to live in fear of your body changing, or of fear of weight.
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